The sting of defeat
My Chaddy came tonight. We went for dinner. Something about him always makes me feel better about myself. He makes me feel stronger than I am. And I will always love him for this.
There is a job opening up at the place I'm temping at right now. I think I could have it if I decide that I want it. I don't know if I do yet.
I received an abudance of Christmas presents. The headboard and mirror that complete my bedroom set. A DeWalt cordless electric drill (just what I asked for). Jewelry, expensive perfume, books, the second season of the Simpsons on DVD, good luck soap, clothing, etc. A record player from Christy's parents.
Christmas Eve was spent with David, driving around, talking, feeling (temporarily) good.
I crashed yesterday. My mood has been so up and down. Christmas Day I slept and slept. And drove back to the apartment. I could barely get myself up for work this morning.
I am just so tired. I know in my head that things are going to be okay. But my heart doesn't believe it.
*Sarah*
