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Angry, Vengeful and Bitter... If you were a StrangeLittleGirl, you would be....

"The sky is turning red..."

Which Strange Little Girl would you be?

This quiz made while Angel was procrastinating her ass off.

Raining Blood

I would really hate to be on your bad side. Because when someone wrongs you, you make them pay. You hold grudges easily against those who wrong you or your loved ones. In general, you're a very angry person, from years of slights from the world. You tend to lose your temper easily, and often act without considering all of the consequences of your actions. The trouble with being on guard and vengeful is, while you at least are laying blame on those who wrong you instead of hating yourself, you send out negative vibes that make others not like you. This of course creates a cycle of negativity. Power in moderation is a good thing; we all need to feel capable and empowered. But the dictator always falls, and falls hard. Be careful what you wish for - you might just get it.

"From a lacerated sky...."

okay...so maybe this is just about my current mood or something. time to stop being angry now. as for making people pay when they wrong me...well...i've been told more than once "you're scary, i hope you never get mad at me". interestingly, that's the picture that was on the album cover when i bought the cd.

*sarah*

hell hath no fury

last night was my grandfather's 80th birthday. the entire family went to dinner at the nicollett island inn. it was really great. we started out with cheese and wine and moved on to an unbelievably good dinner.

we went back to my grandparent's house for cake and presents. my grandpa's three sons wrote a song and performed it for him. it was a really nice evening. although, we didn't get back to town until quite late and i am extremely tired today.

i'm still upset about christy. i just don't know what to think. i probably need to talk to her, but i don't even feel like i'd know what to say right now. in some ways, i know her better than anyone else. we've known each other for twenty years. but in other ways, i'm still at a complete loss sometimes. i'm just hurt i guess. and i'm back to wondering what the value of the friendship is again.

we've had so many ups and downs. loving each other. hating each other. it starts to wear on me. in some ways it's been very much like a dating relationship (minus the dating). we're like a couple that has been playing the makeup/breakup game for years. and i'm beginning to question whether it's all worth it. i don't trust her anymore. and what is friendship without trust?

i guess what i need is a few more days to think about everything. rash decisions are often regretted later on. last night i wanted to get on the phone, scream "fuck you", and hang up. today i didn't want to talk to her at all. time will sort it out.

you may wonder if all of this anger is merited. i guess that i feel that it is. it's such a long story, and i only write bits and pieces here.

*sarah*