Anything difficult isn't worth doing
In fact, my grandparents were down this morning and brought a box of old glass items for my sister and I. I took a candy dish and two small glass ashtrays. That was when it broke in my mind: this morning...
I've got this horribly panicked feeling in my chest right now. And the psycho-bitchiness is beginning to come out too. Can I really do this?
I don't think I can quit smoking AND eat better AND start exercising again all at once.
For now, my laziness will prevail. I will not put out the energy required to get warm clothes on, start up my car, drive to a gas station, buy cigarettes, find someplace outdoors to smoke before coming home, return to my house, and deal with my parents asking why I suddenly smell like smoke.
It's easier to just suffer for now.
*Sarah*